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A Long Way From Anything

A guy trying to find a home that never was.

Friday, February 27, 2004
Sometimes I think maybe we had it right back in elementry school. You know, back when you used to pass a person a note that said "If you like me, check the box". Stuff like that. We used to figure out what eachother liked and wanted merely by passing them a note. If you remember, that was pretty heavy stuff back then. Now the issues are more complex. It's now easy to figure out if someone is attracted to you, but the hard part is figuring out how compatible the two of you are.

Sometimes I wish there was a personnell office you could go by..."Hello, I'd like to check the sexual preferences of Jane Doe." It'd save a lot of trouble really. There are so many people in the world with so many different tastes it somtimes seems impossible to find a match. Not on just the sexual level either, on the emotional as well. You may meet an amazing person and later find out they are really into 80s Hair Bands and you just can't stand that sort of thing. Or, you may meet an amazingly compatible person and later find out they only have plain vanilla sex when you are a huge latex fetishist who's into mass orgies involving midgets and whipped cream. You never know what you've gotten yourself into. It's the unsureness of it that bothers me. The fact that you never know. We as adults hide so much of our personality that it takes time before you can even hope to come to know someone. By the time you've done that you're in a relationship. And it's a pain in the ass to realize a few months in that you can't stand that person.

Thursday, February 19, 2004
Scary to think I've only visited 9% of the countries in the world and everyone I know considers me to be really well traveled. I don't know if that says something about me (i.e., maybe I'll never feel as though I've travelled enough) or about the people I know (i.e., they've never been anywhere and never will go anywhere). Here's the breakdown though:



create your own visited country map
or write about it on the open travel guide



UPDATE:
Here we go. 74% of the states visited. Now that's more like it.



create your own visited states map
or write about it on the open travel guide


Sunday, February 15, 2004
hmm...so I haven't posted in a loooong damn time. What can I say? I've been busy. I do have a little tidbit of info that I realized tonight. I was reading over one of my ex-girlfriend's blogs when it hit me. The reason I listen to sad and depressing music all the time is because I have a hard time expressing my non-angry negative (depressed, sad, hurt, upset, etc...) emotions. Depressing music for me is similar to the ancient Greek use of tragedies. When they were down, they didn't want to see someone who was happy, they wanted to see something sad to make themselves feel better. That's why I listen to depressing music all the time, to give me a lift. It works in a kind of reverse psychology way.

Oh, and by the way: I really must be a masochist to be going around reading the blog of a girl who broke my heart. Sick huh?


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