Evening
Well, I went out with N (the girl I have a "thing" for) tonight (along with some other people), went and saw "The Lady Killers". Eh. Normally I'm a fan of Tom Hanks, but this time, not so much. Before we went she came over and shaved my head (for my FTX) not too bad. I look pretty good in a high & tight (if I do say so myself). Along with my USMC cover I look badass. (g) We chatted for a while and I played it pretty cool I thought. I tried to cook her dinner (in compensation for shaving my head), but it sucked and we ended up ordering pizza (what can I say? I can't cook).
In the movie I kept glancing over at her, wondering what exactly I'm feeling. Is it just Lust? I dunno. I'm planning on asking out this other girl from one of my classes though. She's absolutely gorgeous and I think we have some chemistry, but we haven't talked all that much.
I wonder if my feelings (whatever they are) for N are just a response after being cheated on by K (the ex as of March 9th). I think I need to be okay with being alone before I rush into something else. It wouldn't be fair to a new girl to burden her with my current (admittedly somewhat anti-female) state of mind. I've worked hard over the past few years to develop a sense of respect for women and using one as a "rebound" might endanger that.
Hell, it's all so confusing. Maybe this is why I study philosophy and religion. I keep trying to figure everything out. Maybe one day I'll have a better grasp upon things. But for right now, I've got to keep going as best I can. In a side note, S is coming to visit next week. Definetly looking forward to that. He and I are going to get rip-roaring drunk. If I don't fall down at least once I'll be pissed. (g)
Music: "The Last Time I Commited Suicide" Soundtrack
In the movie I kept glancing over at her, wondering what exactly I'm feeling. Is it just Lust? I dunno. I'm planning on asking out this other girl from one of my classes though. She's absolutely gorgeous and I think we have some chemistry, but we haven't talked all that much.
I wonder if my feelings (whatever they are) for N are just a response after being cheated on by K (the ex as of March 9th). I think I need to be okay with being alone before I rush into something else. It wouldn't be fair to a new girl to burden her with my current (admittedly somewhat anti-female) state of mind. I've worked hard over the past few years to develop a sense of respect for women and using one as a "rebound" might endanger that.
Hell, it's all so confusing. Maybe this is why I study philosophy and religion. I keep trying to figure everything out. Maybe one day I'll have a better grasp upon things. But for right now, I've got to keep going as best I can. In a side note, S is coming to visit next week. Definetly looking forward to that. He and I are going to get rip-roaring drunk. If I don't fall down at least once I'll be pissed. (g)
Music: "The Last Time I Commited Suicide" Soundtrack
