Sometimes I really hate being me. For instance: Right now I am in a situation where there is great possibility for conflict of interest. I've been interested in this person for a long time (and vice-versa) we just never managed to hook up (due to too many factors to explain). Well, now I'm single again and I've considered asking her out because emotionally I do really like her. The problem is that I can rationally think of quite a few reasons why I shouldn't like her, why I shouldn't ask her out, and the possible repercussions of me asking her out (no matter what her answer is). This is irritating to me because of who I am.
For Christsakes I study logic and ethics almost every day! I have extensive training in problem solving and rational thinking; I go even further and study these things for fun in my free time! Damn it! Why does being human have to be so fucking annoying! If I rationally analyze a problem and then logically decide something, why is it my emotions keep protesting? You'd think that I could say "No. I should not ask her out and I should never make any advances on her." And that would be the end of it. But noooo...I really fricking hate emotions.
Maybe that's the quality of being adult. Being able to acknowledge that your emotions want you to do one thing and rationally deciding that you shouldn't.
For Christsakes I study logic and ethics almost every day! I have extensive training in problem solving and rational thinking; I go even further and study these things for fun in my free time! Damn it! Why does being human have to be so fucking annoying! If I rationally analyze a problem and then logically decide something, why is it my emotions keep protesting? You'd think that I could say "No. I should not ask her out and I should never make any advances on her." And that would be the end of it. But noooo...I really fricking hate emotions.
Maybe that's the quality of being adult. Being able to acknowledge that your emotions want you to do one thing and rationally deciding that you shouldn't.
