Maybe I am naive, but in the late hours of the evening, I start thinking that maybe I do have the ability to be excellent at anything I try. Kinda similar to what Neal Stephenson writes in Snow Crash:
"Until a man is twenty-five, he still thinks, every so often, that under the right circumstances, he could be the baddest motherfucker in the world. If I moved to a martial-arts monastery in China and studied real hard for ten years. If my family was wiped out by Colombian drug dealers and I swore myself to revenge. If I got a fatal disease, had one year to live, and devoted it to wiping out street crime. If I just dropped out and devoted my life to being bad."
It's strange, but right before I go to bed is when I am motivated the most. I always go to bed wishing I didn't have to. This usually causes me to delay my bedtime by a couple of hours later than it should be. As soon as the alarm goes off though, I wish I had gone to bed earlier.
I often wonder if this feeling of ability is what people talk about when they mention the youthful feeling of invincibility. I don't feel invincible. In fact, I know I'm not. I've gotten my ass beaten enough times to know. So maybe it's not an issue where I don't have fear, I just don't have a fear of failure. I do worry though...
"Until a man is twenty-five, he still thinks, every so often, that under the right circumstances, he could be the baddest motherfucker in the world. If I moved to a martial-arts monastery in China and studied real hard for ten years. If my family was wiped out by Colombian drug dealers and I swore myself to revenge. If I got a fatal disease, had one year to live, and devoted it to wiping out street crime. If I just dropped out and devoted my life to being bad."
It's strange, but right before I go to bed is when I am motivated the most. I always go to bed wishing I didn't have to. This usually causes me to delay my bedtime by a couple of hours later than it should be. As soon as the alarm goes off though, I wish I had gone to bed earlier.
I often wonder if this feeling of ability is what people talk about when they mention the youthful feeling of invincibility. I don't feel invincible. In fact, I know I'm not. I've gotten my ass beaten enough times to know. So maybe it's not an issue where I don't have fear, I just don't have a fear of failure. I do worry though...
