I've been thinking some more about my past relationships and I've come to realize a pattern of sorts. Not one that defines the entire process, but merely a part of it. This hasn't happened with all of my girlfriends either, just the ones that didn't hang around for long. It seems that I always find something about them that I don't like. Generally, this has to do with sex. It acts almost like a sore tooth, I worry and worry it until there's no choice but to have it yanked. The reason that I comment on this is that I do this with everyone. With certain relationships though, I don't find faults in my people emotionally or mentally, but sexually. Maybe this shows how I view the relationship. Maybe I'm not even giving it the time to become something more than sex. Possibly this is a defense mechanism to keep me from getting too close to someone. Whatever it is, it's a bitch. It's hard to keep doing your job during sex when you keep focusing on that one fault. (g)
