Well. Today sucked. I broke down and bought a pack of cigarettes. The stress level I had to deal with today was just too much. I got back my last German exam and I failed it big time. This is depressing for me because I have worked harder in that class than I have in any of my others. Now, unless I do really well on the last 2 tests, I fail the class.
To add even more misery to this, if I fail the class, There's no way I'm going to OCS this summer. I simply will not have the credits required.
Then, if it really needs any more, my prick of a teacher yelled at me in class for asking a question. I didn't understand the context of a verb (the sentence made no sense), and he bitched me out for wasting his time. I swear his evaluation at the end of the semester is going to be horrible.
So yeah. I'm now back to quitting. The funny thing is that I'm over the physical addiction. It was the psychological one that killed me. But I smoked two out of the pack and threw the rest away (there went $4). Now I'm not stressed anymore. I'm pissed.
To add even more misery to this, if I fail the class, There's no way I'm going to OCS this summer. I simply will not have the credits required.
Then, if it really needs any more, my prick of a teacher yelled at me in class for asking a question. I didn't understand the context of a verb (the sentence made no sense), and he bitched me out for wasting his time. I swear his evaluation at the end of the semester is going to be horrible.
So yeah. I'm now back to quitting. The funny thing is that I'm over the physical addiction. It was the psychological one that killed me. But I smoked two out of the pack and threw the rest away (there went $4). Now I'm not stressed anymore. I'm pissed.
